In light of Valentines day being just around the corner I thought I would share a little something from the heart today (see what I did there... pun intended). Anyway, I've been thinking a lot lately about how thankful I am for the place that the Lord has brought me to. Sometimes when we experience loss or hard times, or just if things seem to be pulling against us I think we can get kind of trapped by those feelings (guilty) and its hard to see the light through the dark. But, man, does God have a way of making beauty from ashes.
Two of my favorite things about my life happened last year... (I seriously cant believe I am typing those words, but its true). The first is that the Lord allowed me to memorize scripture at a rapid pace without even trying. My brain is like a bank of wisdom and truth about Him and I didn't even really try to make it that way. The reason for this is that the Word became my life line last year. There were a lot of days in which my only break from the storm I was living in was my time with the Lord. It was the only time my thoughts would quiet and my fear would seem to ease. It gave literal meaning to the verses that talk about the Lord being a refuge or a place to rest (Psalm 46, Psalm 91 are a few).
The second is that the Lord has given me a fierce boldness for him that was NOT there before. The fear (or maybe just plain laziness... or a combo of the two most likely) that I once had in bringing up my faith with friends most likely came from a place of 1) not wanting to be vulnerable... I mean can't we just hang and have coffee? Do I really need to talk about my heart? and 2) from not really having much to say (ouch). But when the Lord is IN you, I mean really in you, its hard to NOT talk about him -cue the sunday school lesson- but I am serious. When God was all I had, I couldn't talk about much else... and guess what? My friendships and relationships have become so much richer because of it, not the other way around. Life seems more genuine and its such a relief to know that more often than no the thing that is on your heart has been on someone else's heart during their life too.
The Lord is so good and so faithful and so strong and so able to handle anything that our lives throw at us. So this Valentines day I am thankful for the love that the Lord has put in my life, through himself, other people, family, friends, and the list goes on. When one door closes God opens a few more in its place.